The Solo Act

For the past 2.8 years my fiancee and I have done everything together. I'm thinking of doing more solo things (with friends, by myself) and feeling more in sync with my identity again. Also, we're having a bit of a row so I think it's best to spend time by myself and explore what I want in life. I think spending too much time with one person leads you to assimilate into this half of a being where by yourself, you feel lesser. Well, I want to know I'll survive. So that's the test.

Chasing Utopia

Utopia for everyone is different. For some it's wild girls, strip clubs, casinos and fast cars. For my mom, it'd be churches and women singing the church songs and clapping. For me, it'd be a cool condo with a huge flat-screen tv and a ravine nearby to walk the dogs and ride my bike. It wouldn't hurt if there was a sushi spot nearby.

The thing is, you have to always know what already makes you happy in your life and appreciate it. Maybe your life is pretty utopic the way it is already. Spending time with my fiancee and hanging out with my friends makes me pretty euphoric, and I don't think winning millions would make me happier. I love working hard, I love the independence and being a part of a team. I love interacting with people every day. I don't think fancy cars, houses and clothes could be make happier. It'd make my life easier. And the richer you get, the more competitive, eccentric and snooty people tend to be. I don't think the best people out there are the richest. I think the coolest people are the hard workers, the creatives, the artistic, the strivers.

Comitting to g2.

I have my basic (useless) g1 license for Ontario but I now need to get my G2 and G licenses (the full driving license) in the next two years before my license expires and I have to pay for everything all over again. I have been stalling on it because after driving school, I didn't graduate and I'm deathly afraid of driving and car accidents. My fiancee drives us in our car, but I know I cannot procrastinate any longer. I now have to pay for and put my mind to driving lessons to prepare me for the G2 Road Test. I have gone for one lesson for $25 and I did alright although my parallel parking was pathetic.

I think driving is a huge accomplishment and something I look forward too. I want to get over my autophobia and understand the workings of a vehicle. I marvel at the way my baby 3-point turns and reverse park, and I hope to be able to drive too. Heck, I might even get a second car (although insurance would kill us between the two of us). I think it'd be a nice relief for my fiancee for me to drive sometimes and give her a rest.

So, until I begin driving lessons again....I'll be practicing on GTA: IV: :D

Hold!

Our baby plans in our blog "Two Mommies + Baby" is on hold due to the fact we are not financially stable enough to care properly for a child. We have decided to wait until we both earn $44,500 to have a child. From the costs of living in the safe suburbs, to buying quality baby products and accessories, quality private daycare and schooling, college fund savings, extra-curricular activities, family vacations, Christmas & birthday presents and things like bicycles, rollerblades, ice skates etc we realize we would be silly to begin now.

We earn enough money to pay our bills, enjoy a nice dinner out, some nice clothing, new technology etc but not enough to sustain a child. So, we have decided to put our family plans on hold. In the meantime, we are focusing on finding a home in a safe, pleasant community (with free parking) where we can raise our dogs + 1 cat for now. I am thinking of getting a degree after finishing college, and my fiancee is graduating in May 2011.

My fiancee doesn't like cats but I want an exotic one like a Himalayan cat and I want to get it after we get our dogs so they can become friends. I'd name her Hera. I also want a large dog since we've always had smaller dogs (Pomeranian, and Pug respectively). I'm thinking something friendly and down-to-earth like a Lab or Boxer.

Moving out (again) is very exciting to us. Living at our 'rents has been less than fun with the lack of privacy, although having our car and more spending freedom since we are rent-free is a pay-off. Raising pets is very time-consuming and fun, and would take my mind off making a family for now.

A lot of my friends I knew from HS (high school) have gotten pregnant and have kids, are single moms and have these young dads for their kids instead of going to college/university and getting careers and cars and a nice social life. I love these girls but I'd hate to end up like that--making stupid decisions that impact the rest of your life. There is no age to be a perfect mom or pop, but you should be financially and emotionally ready, imo.

I posted some cute pet pics!!!! Oh, and check out the funny Funny Cats videos on YouTube. Seriously funny.

**What We Are Doing Today**
Me: Work, Off to my Fiancee's Suburban house to play GTA: IV

Siamese Cat--Regal and Elegant

More than adorable Yellow Labrador pup

Partner: Class, Pick Me Up, GTA: IV. Snack on homemade food.